DAY 2: 21 Day Social Media Break

After my emotional break down yesterday and going on instagram just to see everyone getting married, going on girls trips, living it up, I just had enough! I couldn’t do it anymore so I decided to give myself a break and delete instagram! Hold up mamacita, I deleted the app not my whole page, I ain’t that crazy!!!

I also went as far as posting a video on my youtube and decided to do a 21 day on that as well! The purpose of this is to reprogram my mind. After waking up and seeing the huge bags under my eyes, I knew I needed to make a change. I needed to learn to love my life and know that I am enough. These words are easy to say but the actions are hard. I started watching a lot of youtube videos talking about refocusing your mind, being happiness with yourself and thoughts, looking in the mirror and saying I love you gyal! This part for me is not hard at all! Let me tell you something, I am cute, I am funny and I love me but do I really? This is what the 21 days will help me seek the answer and find the truth.

I have not technically been diagnosed with depression but I do know I suffer with it. Most days well on days that I am off, I really do not feel like getting out bed. I can break down and cry with the drop of a hat and my mood goes up and down! Ugh whyyyyyy. With the move it has forced me to be alone. I am on the floor with no furniture. No pots, plates, tv, nothing. Just me and my laptop. But, I am grateful. I have a laptop, my wifi is turned on, I do have food and I have family that will help me if I really need it. I do not have a job yet but money is coming to me. The key for me is to turn all my negatives into a positive and just be grateful.

Anyways Day 2 is over and it was way better than yesterday. I have not cried at all today! A+, I went to a temp agency and watched alot of positive videos. Super proud of me.