LOST IN THE SAUCE

I mean really shay, where have you been? I know this is the question your asking me but check it I have been depressed, not feeling to my full potential and just blah! Yes I understand that shit does in fact happen and the show must in fact go on but I really could not. 

The world was crashing in, my seas where rushing in crazy speed. A bit dramatic I know, I know but that is how I felt. Then I said how bout not only being creative with my blog but making it my journal as well. Does it not say that writing down your thoughts helps you to release?

Well I have been "self employed" for 6 months and I thought that I would be able to transition into a regular 9-5 to just straight working for myself. Sell some jewelry, make my youtube channel huge and I would be set. That unfortunately did not happen. I was not able to keep up with bills, food and hair. Sometimes I couldn't not even buy tampons.

So, after months of crying and basically letting myself down I have decided to join the workforce again. I started applying for jobs to get some cash flow back into my pocket. I must say this task is a little harder than normal for me , I am usually able to bag a job with ease. I think the fact that my energy is not in and also time has changed, and I also am looking into a different career is making it so much more difficult.

I just need to buckle up, meditate, think positive thoughts and not beat myself up so much. REAL TALK!!

xoxo, shay!!